Worship last Sunday

I led in worship last Sunday... I was off the Thursday before and I just took my guitar at home and started playing. I already knew one of the songs I was going to sing...it was a new song. Quite powerful...

Here it is : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nPKzCyc0GXY

Was playing the Saviour of the world DVD by Planetshakers...and that song really spoke to me. Saviour of the world... the lyrics so true!!

Amazingly the songs just flowed...I've spent hours figuring out my songlist for Sundays..but sometimes when you're so in tune with God's spirit it just comes across so fast...but sometimes its good that it takes time too... He can really speak so clearly...

As soon as I finished one song God popped in the next one... was really amazing!!

Then Sunday comes. Usually I come in about 8.20 or so and spend time in prayer and preparing myself for the service, even if I am not worship leading... but this Sunday I only arrived at 8.45...seriously late... then had to prepare the youth video and YADS promo video etc...

So I did something i haven't done in a while. I didnt prepare myself fully... so we practiced at 9 am...then prayed with the group. I had a nagging feeling something wasnt right. I was worried about the video and if the multimedia team had it ok...just couldnt focus.

Then worship time came... and it was ok... but it just wasnt the same as it was in the video... I tried to play harder, sing louder get things going...but something was just missing... then I heard His voice... Something like "nothing you do can make it better or worse, you're not relying on Me."

It hit me like a tonne of bricks... I was so concentrating on the technicalities, the right chords, the right things to say...that I somehow left God out of worshipping God. It was like God gave me a knock on the head and said, "Boy, do you remember who you are worshipping, or are you just follwong routine?" And I realized I had fallen into the trap...

Sometimes you get so much in a routine...or a fixed way of doing things, it leaves little room for the Spirit of God to move... when it should really be God running the show, His Spirit leading...and I fell in that trap. All this is going on in my head as we're singing the 3rd and 4th song...

By the last song I completely surrendered to God...and I felt a difference...and I told myself that should never happen again. I shouldn't come not 100% prepared. I should submit to the Spirit and not run things... when it's worship...it should never be a show!

He really taught me a lesson last Sunday.

I'm worship leading again on 23 Nov... it's going to be different...