The next phase
It’s 9.40 pm. I’m sitting in my office. Outside the rain is pelting down hard. Yet “Rain down on me” is playing on my itunes. I’m in the office but I haven’t been doing any work since about 7.00. Been constantly sms-ing somebody…just day to day, run of the mill, stuff…about 20 smses…back and forth. Was surfing here and there.
I have this vague sense of bittersweetness. A little fear, trembling even. And somehow I ask myself questions that I know only He can answer. I see myself bordering on getting depressed. The Holy Spirit prompted me to move in a different direction so I don’t fall there.
You see I got back at 3.00am last night from Semporna Sabah. Was there for a week for the ending of the DiGi Amazing Malaysian Sabah poject. For once Air Asia let me down and was 2 hours delayed from Tawau. http://www.digi.com.my/aboutdigi/community/cm_about.do
Sabah was good. We took the last day to visit Pulau Sipadan, Kapalai and Mabul. Beautiful islands…yet somehow I just couldn’t relax.
2 days before as all the children were doing their rehearsal. One section of the stage fell collapsed. When I saw that my heart fell like a brick from a ten storey building. These were children. Somebody’s son and daughter. I ran to the stage. About 12 of them were in a hole in the stage, about 4 feet deep. Broken plywood and support beams built by a half-baked vendor is Semporna. It just couldn’t take the load of so many children concentrated in one area.
Eric ran to the same area. Peter was there too. We carried them out to safety. A few had twisted ankles. We suspected one was broken. I mean these were 8 to 12 year olds. How could we let this happen? I thought of my own nephew and niece. I would be raving mad if something like that had happened to them!
It was only God’s grace that saved each one of them. Only 4 had sprained their ankle slightly. No fractures. No punctures. No blood. And all were able to perform the next day. If that had happened on the event day…I can’t event think of the consequences…from the client. From the community…I wouldn’t have forgiven myself. It was just too much at some point. Then I realized God’s goodness and mercy. It flows new every morning! He loves us too much! Even in that tragedy…there was so much good that came out of it. We were able to think on out feet and just manage the situation, the parents, the whole thing. God gave us wisdom at the right time!
I have more or less started my countdown of leaving Ayesha Harben and Associates. This would be my third last project for the DiGi campaign. A few more for the ministry and 2 more for another client. The last 3+ years have been phenomenal at AHA. I have grown so much professionally, personally. As a producer. As an event person. As a PR practitioner. As a strategic thinker.
And I know it’s God’s training ground. In the back of my mind I knew this was all temporary. The call of God has been so strong all my life. I look back and see some pivotal moments in my life. Me going to Singapore. Me deciding to take up the AV part in school. Becoming head prefect. Leadership roles. The MYF back here in KL. Leaving the Methodist Church and coming to Revival Centre.
I remember struggling with that decision. Am I really to leave the Methodist church? Could I possibly be making the right decision? If I were to leave who will stay and fight the fight? To be there for the young people? I now know that God raises people. At the right time and place. To glorify His name, to do His work and will. It’s not about you. It’s about just submitting to His will.
I thank God for Revivl Centre. How much I have grown here. Spiritually…I feel I’ve conquered Mt Kinabalu…and there’s still Everest to go. In January 2008, I’m joining the church full time. My passion for the young people has not died. It fact its grown by leaps and bounds. And suddenly, in the last 7 years, the Worship element of my life has sky rocketed. “Blessed be your name, even when I walk through the wilderness, Blessed be your name”
Worship…oh Worship…where do I start. “Every blessing you have poured out I will turn back to praise!” I just adore Him. I just want to say thank you. When Jesus rode out on a donkey to enter Jerusalem, the people were shouting ‘Praise the Lord. Blessed be the Lord for the Son of David’. The priests asks Jesus how He could let that happen. And He answered: “If they were to keep quiet, the stones in the field will break out in Praise!!”
For who are we compared to the Great Creator! The Maker of the Heavens and the Earth! He is worthy of all praise! He is worthy! For He ALONE is God!! He has no equal!! We mere mortals stand in awe of the Living God…
I’m worshiping leading this Sunday. And I’m excited. I’m so excited. What an honour. What a true priviledge to just lead His people into His presence. As a worship leader..we are to disappear. We are the PVC pipe that leads people to God. No one wants to worry too much about the Pipe. But more so where the pipe is leading them to! Lord make me that channel that leads your people into your presence.
I’ve got so many things I want to plan and do. I don’t know yet if they’re just my plans or if it’s God inspired…but I have this yearning in my heart! This unquenchable fire. So excited to do things for Him. When I was in the Methodist church I thought it the Ministry was one of poverty, of constantly being poor and being that church mouse.
But its not that. The AOG churches have so much to do that’s cutting edge. Production. Youth and Music. Ministry that takes you to higher heights of service, but only for those surrender to servanthood. I read it again and again. Servanthood. For those who want to be great in the Kingdom of God must be a servant of all. Not to sit in lofty seats but to be prepared to go the extra mile…not because of duty or compulsion… but just because we love the name of Jesus. For he first loved us.
Honestly, I’m finding it hard to be motivated in work in AHA. Knowing what lies ahead, I press forward! But I know while I am here I have to give it my all. And I want to end this year with a bang in AHA. To really do cutting edge stuff. You see these last few years, god has been training me for such a time like this. I’m a professional producer in God’s service. Not that I am blowing my own trumpet, but its all about a spirit of excellence. Whatever we do, to do it perfectly well for God, with His guidance.
I was on the committee for the Influence conference. I didn’t get much sleep. Same like work. There were long hours. Same like work. There were trying times. Just like work. But there was something so much more than that! And the end of the whole thing. I was on my knees. Not in prayer but I was re-laying the mic cables on GTPJ’s stage. And I was in tears. I have checked on cables 1000 times before. I have worked out production schedules. I have drawn projection diagrams. But this time it was so much different. For the first time I was doing something professionally for GOD! Not indirectly, but something directly that opens up the way for many into the Kingdom of God. For there first time I realized the verse “you were created for such a time like this”. Read Esther. She was set in that place for a time like that. I read about the begger that “threw aside his coat” when Jesus called Him. And he was healed. His coat was His security. He threw it aside. I can’t wait to jump into this new phase in my life.
How many times before I look at the huge stages and the huge budgets that go out to the DiGi events. And I wish they were Christian events. Why can’t that be a reality?
God speaks in so many ways. From the sea of Sipadan. Where I saw a thousand fish in 2000 colours! Beautiful coral…all God’s creation. From the safety and great weather of the events. From those kids that fell, but were not injured. From the safety getting there and back. From the whole event. How clear He speaks…and here I was wondering why He isn’t speaking to me as much… He IS our amazing God who speaks.
I was wondering why Oliver wasn’t getting a job. Was even feeling frustrated for him. Then I read His blog. I realized how much God was working on oliver’s personal relationship with God. What a special special time he is having right now! It brought tears to my eyes.
I’m going back now…and even now. I hear God’s voice so clearly. His awesome presence. The comfort of the Holy Spirit. So wow. So nice. So amazing. How great is our God!
I have this vague sense of bittersweetness. A little fear, trembling even. And somehow I ask myself questions that I know only He can answer. I see myself bordering on getting depressed. The Holy Spirit prompted me to move in a different direction so I don’t fall there.
You see I got back at 3.00am last night from Semporna Sabah. Was there for a week for the ending of the DiGi Amazing Malaysian Sabah poject. For once Air Asia let me down and was 2 hours delayed from Tawau. http://www.digi.com.my/aboutdigi/community/cm_about.do
Sabah was good. We took the last day to visit Pulau Sipadan, Kapalai and Mabul. Beautiful islands…yet somehow I just couldn’t relax.
2 days before as all the children were doing their rehearsal. One section of the stage fell collapsed. When I saw that my heart fell like a brick from a ten storey building. These were children. Somebody’s son and daughter. I ran to the stage. About 12 of them were in a hole in the stage, about 4 feet deep. Broken plywood and support beams built by a half-baked vendor is Semporna. It just couldn’t take the load of so many children concentrated in one area.
Eric ran to the same area. Peter was there too. We carried them out to safety. A few had twisted ankles. We suspected one was broken. I mean these were 8 to 12 year olds. How could we let this happen? I thought of my own nephew and niece. I would be raving mad if something like that had happened to them!
It was only God’s grace that saved each one of them. Only 4 had sprained their ankle slightly. No fractures. No punctures. No blood. And all were able to perform the next day. If that had happened on the event day…I can’t event think of the consequences…from the client. From the community…I wouldn’t have forgiven myself. It was just too much at some point. Then I realized God’s goodness and mercy. It flows new every morning! He loves us too much! Even in that tragedy…there was so much good that came out of it. We were able to think on out feet and just manage the situation, the parents, the whole thing. God gave us wisdom at the right time!
I have more or less started my countdown of leaving Ayesha Harben and Associates. This would be my third last project for the DiGi campaign. A few more for the ministry and 2 more for another client. The last 3+ years have been phenomenal at AHA. I have grown so much professionally, personally. As a producer. As an event person. As a PR practitioner. As a strategic thinker.
And I know it’s God’s training ground. In the back of my mind I knew this was all temporary. The call of God has been so strong all my life. I look back and see some pivotal moments in my life. Me going to Singapore. Me deciding to take up the AV part in school. Becoming head prefect. Leadership roles. The MYF back here in KL. Leaving the Methodist Church and coming to Revival Centre.
I remember struggling with that decision. Am I really to leave the Methodist church? Could I possibly be making the right decision? If I were to leave who will stay and fight the fight? To be there for the young people? I now know that God raises people. At the right time and place. To glorify His name, to do His work and will. It’s not about you. It’s about just submitting to His will.
I thank God for Revivl Centre. How much I have grown here. Spiritually…I feel I’ve conquered Mt Kinabalu…and there’s still Everest to go. In January 2008, I’m joining the church full time. My passion for the young people has not died. It fact its grown by leaps and bounds. And suddenly, in the last 7 years, the Worship element of my life has sky rocketed. “Blessed be your name, even when I walk through the wilderness, Blessed be your name”
Worship…oh Worship…where do I start. “Every blessing you have poured out I will turn back to praise!” I just adore Him. I just want to say thank you. When Jesus rode out on a donkey to enter Jerusalem, the people were shouting ‘Praise the Lord. Blessed be the Lord for the Son of David’. The priests asks Jesus how He could let that happen. And He answered: “If they were to keep quiet, the stones in the field will break out in Praise!!”
For who are we compared to the Great Creator! The Maker of the Heavens and the Earth! He is worthy of all praise! He is worthy! For He ALONE is God!! He has no equal!! We mere mortals stand in awe of the Living God…
I’m worshiping leading this Sunday. And I’m excited. I’m so excited. What an honour. What a true priviledge to just lead His people into His presence. As a worship leader..we are to disappear. We are the PVC pipe that leads people to God. No one wants to worry too much about the Pipe. But more so where the pipe is leading them to! Lord make me that channel that leads your people into your presence.
I’ve got so many things I want to plan and do. I don’t know yet if they’re just my plans or if it’s God inspired…but I have this yearning in my heart! This unquenchable fire. So excited to do things for Him. When I was in the Methodist church I thought it the Ministry was one of poverty, of constantly being poor and being that church mouse.
But its not that. The AOG churches have so much to do that’s cutting edge. Production. Youth and Music. Ministry that takes you to higher heights of service, but only for those surrender to servanthood. I read it again and again. Servanthood. For those who want to be great in the Kingdom of God must be a servant of all. Not to sit in lofty seats but to be prepared to go the extra mile…not because of duty or compulsion… but just because we love the name of Jesus. For he first loved us.
Honestly, I’m finding it hard to be motivated in work in AHA. Knowing what lies ahead, I press forward! But I know while I am here I have to give it my all. And I want to end this year with a bang in AHA. To really do cutting edge stuff. You see these last few years, god has been training me for such a time like this. I’m a professional producer in God’s service. Not that I am blowing my own trumpet, but its all about a spirit of excellence. Whatever we do, to do it perfectly well for God, with His guidance.
I was on the committee for the Influence conference. I didn’t get much sleep. Same like work. There were long hours. Same like work. There were trying times. Just like work. But there was something so much more than that! And the end of the whole thing. I was on my knees. Not in prayer but I was re-laying the mic cables on GTPJ’s stage. And I was in tears. I have checked on cables 1000 times before. I have worked out production schedules. I have drawn projection diagrams. But this time it was so much different. For the first time I was doing something professionally for GOD! Not indirectly, but something directly that opens up the way for many into the Kingdom of God. For there first time I realized the verse “you were created for such a time like this”. Read Esther. She was set in that place for a time like that. I read about the begger that “threw aside his coat” when Jesus called Him. And he was healed. His coat was His security. He threw it aside. I can’t wait to jump into this new phase in my life.
How many times before I look at the huge stages and the huge budgets that go out to the DiGi events. And I wish they were Christian events. Why can’t that be a reality?
God speaks in so many ways. From the sea of Sipadan. Where I saw a thousand fish in 2000 colours! Beautiful coral…all God’s creation. From the safety and great weather of the events. From those kids that fell, but were not injured. From the safety getting there and back. From the whole event. How clear He speaks…and here I was wondering why He isn’t speaking to me as much… He IS our amazing God who speaks.
I was wondering why Oliver wasn’t getting a job. Was even feeling frustrated for him. Then I read His blog. I realized how much God was working on oliver’s personal relationship with God. What a special special time he is having right now! It brought tears to my eyes.
I’m going back now…and even now. I hear God’s voice so clearly. His awesome presence. The comfort of the Holy Spirit. So wow. So nice. So amazing. How great is our God!
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