Civilization...

I'm back from Mukah. It's over! Finshed the project there. Don't have to go back there! Yeehah! Dunno if I will miss that place. We'll see lah.

Had a reallyh long wait before getting back to KL yesterday. A plane got grounded on the runway in Kuching and delayed all the ther flights. So only got to bed at 2.45 am. Tired like crazy.

The project went well though...only mistake was the position of the fireworks. Somehow I thought it would be so much more to the left, but it was more like behind lamin dana...and then the wind carried it some more...so it went just like that. But I give all Glory to God! I prayed so hard that it won't rain. And it didnt! My God didn't let me down. Bossy went and poked chili in the ground. I refused to have anything to do with it. My God shall provide all my needs! Why look around when He is the God that invented the sun, sand, rain and everything else! God you are just magnificent Lord!!

Mukah gave me some time with my Bible though. Not so much the frentic pace on KL...but since I was staying at the venue I could spend some quality time with Him! And it was nice.

I thought I'd really enjoy coming back to KL...and I'm really glad I'm back...but somehow the pace of it...the event on the 24th and Mano's wedding on the 25th...think I'm beggining to get quite stressed.

The plus side is that bossy said they are going to get me a new phone! Yay! And she wants to send me to the Rainforest festival in July! Woo Hoo! Always wanted to go... Now the office is sending me...how cool is that!

I miss my home group though... Feel so bad I wasn't there on the 1st HG of this year. But will make it up to them this Friday. I must. I have to be there for them. I want to be there for them.

Going through my pot event blues now...Feel a bit sad about things...but I guess things are really better coz Clare is back. She is such a help! KG is still not the same with me. I think the recent episode is getting her thinking again. Bugs me like crazy. But Lord, I'm leaving it up to you. You do what is best in this situation. I'm leaving it totally at your feet Lord. I cant do much else, you do what you see fit Lord!

Next is the announcement on 24th! It's gonna be great. I just hope we can execute it perfectly! Lord...empower me. No one else can do it but you Lord!

I wasn't elected into the deacon board. I'm relieved actually. I dunno why. Maybe its my timing. Just so much of my time is work now. Not much time for anything else. Must find some time to find a girlfrend lah! ha ha ha.... Think soon, Very soon. But I know it's His will. He really go tme thinking. BUt what else does he have in store for me?

But the board looks really good. Good people. Humble people. God fearing people! Excited to serve with them. Am a bit worried bout the Music thing. Have to lean on God so much for this. There are people that are so much more musically inclined! But I beleive God made me for such a time like this! I'm gonna step into it and let His light shine! Shine Jesus Shine! Woo Hoo!

Going home now. Got prayer meeting. Speak today Lord. Just wanna spend some quality time with you Lord! Your're my strength! My source! My redeemer! Where would I be without you Lord? Love you so much. So So much.

Bali...

The bunch that had a party of a time in bali! Boy was it a good time...

Brain Freeze!

Have you ever had so much in your head that you feel like you just want to explode? Well...it really feels like that now.

I'm really torn right now. Yesterday church was good. But here I am contemplating going into the church full time. Well it can't happen immedeatly. I have a lot to settle in terms of getting someone to replace me at work. But work is jut really good right now.

Am leaving for Penang at 7.30 am trow. Means I have to leave here by 6 to be at the airport. Sigh. Come back on the last flight out and have to leave on the first flight in on Wednesday to Sarawak. Back on thursday. Then Saturday it's off to Kuala Terengganu. This week is going to be long. And then it's 6 days in Sawarak starting from next wednesday. It's just crazy. But so much to do.

I'm really glad Clarissa is back at work, at least the budgets and all will be taken care of. Paperwork won't be so heavy and I can concentrate on the Projects and putting them together. And I suddenly have diarrhea now...man must be the maggi mee goreng I had for lunch.

Benny's dad died. He's on his way back from Japan. Poor thing. Will go over to Rawang later and visit him. Benny must be just torn apart. He's not just a supplier. He's become a good friend. Someone who is going through a lot. But I hope he feel better now.

Mano's weding is coming nearer. With all this traveling it's also quite hectic to keep thingking about that. But it's a once in a lifetime thing. So I must be there for her. See to it that all the loose ends are tied up. It's hard. Really hard. She is wuite stubborn and just won't see it any other way. Well, I guess God is the only one that can get to her. Mummy is quite stressed too. She looks so harried. Guess everyone's tension is just so high now. Hope all goes ok once the relatives start arriving and stuff get busier.

Which brings me to my question. Where does my future lie? Corporate world and be a preacher? Or go full time. I won't lie that I'm not afraid. I know my future is in His hands. And I have no doubt whatsoever that He will show me the way. It' just a bit lonely now. I wish I had someone I could speak to that really knows what I'm feeling like. Peter has been a real help. Thank God for bringing him into the office. He has been a good person to talk to. But I guess I want to hear from God straight. I have asked Him and am waiting for a reply. I think Sarawak is going to be my alone time with Him. When I am sitting there on the deck of lamin dana next to the tellian river in sarawak, I think I'll be able to hear him clearly. So Lord, speak. Your servant is waiting.

On another note, also a contributer to the brain freeze. Met with Sham on Sat night. Spoke about the she getting married situation. I guess I said my peace. And am sure she undertands. It will take some time to get used to the idea. But I will. And I may just end up going for the wedding after all. But its gonna get some getting used to!

Miss terence boy. He wasn;t free when I was, and I wasnt free when he was. Need to sit and talk to that boy...it's been to long.

In the mean time by head feels so heavy from all this thinking. Lord. I'm waiting. Speak.

Brain Freeze!